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Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru toiu yo

Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru to iu yo
Tadori tsuku sono saki ni wa
Nani ga bokura wo matteru?

Nigeru tame ja naku yume ou tame ni
Tabi ni deta hazusa tooi natsu no ano hi

Ashita sae mieta nara tame iki mo nai kedo
Nagare ni sakarau fune no you ni
Ima wa mae he susume

Kurushimi no tsukita basho ni
Shiawase ga matsu toiu yo
Boku wa mada sagashite iru
Kisetsu hazure no himawari

Kobushi nigirishime asahi wo mateba
Akai tsume ato ni namida kirari ochiru

Kodoku ni mo nareta nara
Tsuki akari tayori ni
Hane naki tsubasa de tobi tatou
Motto mae he susume

Amagumo ga kireta nara
Nureta michi kagayaku
Yami dake ga oshiete kureru
Tsuyoi tsuyoi hikari
Tsuyoku mae he susume

security guard askin us to pack up.. =(

tong..xing fu wor..smack in the middle with the gers..

see the one at the back?? tat's shaun...

tryin to finish up all the food...

thomas is the leader now..

cool...

wat is tat tong doin on thomas's face??

rox on gers!!

noooooooooo!!! don take my pic..

OMG..sum1 save jiesheng b4 it's too late..

aiyo..don consider le..juz take it!!

yummy chicken wing...

thomas still hav the energy to wave at the camera..

oi..underage la...

pondering how they should cook the food..

drink it up!!

cheers!!

sheng!!!

yum....

OMG..kent..wat r u doing??

food food n food...

he's the one who supplied our chicken wings!! cheers!!

thomas..don eat the batteries la!!

jiesheng!! the lime is not for u to eat!!

chefs busy at work..

happy family!!

yuenyan looks abit stuck..

angie!! no knee on the ground!!

check out his face.. =x

childhood memories with the swings..

awaitin for the fire..

chengwai busy in the kitchen..

duno why..

i hav tis feeling tat we had distanced apart..

the distance between us...

is like drifting further n further away...

how i wish everything can be like the past...

but...

no matter wat...

juz wanna say..

THANKIEW!!!

for watever u had done for me...

esp for bringing much joy in my life..

thks for being there for me whenever i needed u (in the past)..

though we have distanced...

wanna let u noe tat u r always in my mind...

seriously speaking...

i don wanna lose such a good fren like u!!!

miss u!!! =_(

stress stress stress..

i can feel it cuming...

but..why am i still not doing anything to cope it??

wat's wrong with me?? onli noe how to play play and play..

sumtimes..i'm REALLY pissed off and disappointed in myself..

i juz cant seem to get my priorities right..

i juz cant seem to fulfill every promise i made to myself..

for instance..i told myself tat i will start studying for 'A's..

but did i?? NEVER!!

i told myself to complete every piece of work i had on time..

but did i again?? NEVER NEVER!!!

i told myself to try forget him..

but did i?? NEVER NEVER NEVER!!!

arrg..

realli.. sumtimes.. i juz feel like..

juz feel like screaming at myself...

for being such a loser...

for being such a useless one who cant even fulfill promises made to oneself..

for being such a lousy fren who cant even make everyone around me happy..

for being such an irresponsible person..who will juz find excuses to stuff i failed to complete..

for instances..kept saying tat there's not enuff time to finish the endless amt of hw..

but..wat about the time i spent loitering around after sch instead of chiong-ing sraight home to finish up my work??

kept saying that the syllabus is realli hard..

but..wat about those peeps who managed to obtain their straight aces??

kept saying tat i wanna maintain a good relationship with my family members..

but..why am i always the one who started arguing back whenever i not happy with them???

kept saying tat i wanna focus more on my studies..

but..why am i always thinkin of..my comp..my hp..movies tat are abt to b screened??

kept saying tat i will pay my fullest attention in class so tat i wun disappoint both myself n my teachers..

but..why am i like always falling asleep in lect [esp physics] ??

kept saying tat i wanna save money..

but when am i like always spending them all even before i could take a look on how much is left??

arrg..

juz dunno why i'm like tat..

maybe i tink tat there's still time for me to catch up on watever i had missed..

but..

seriously thinking..

i realised tat..

THERE'S NO MORE TIME LEFT!!!

seriously!!

it's already term 2..

and..i'm like realli lagging behind like shit..

maths still okie..sumtimes will do..

but the class quizzes tat ms lang gave..and not forgettin the lect tests..aahh..realli cannot make it..results sux to the core..

chemistry..the 3 organic chem tests..

omg..

the 1st one -- juz passed..

the 2nd one -- failed..

the 3rd one -- failed terribly..single digit..wat the hell..

the organic chem weekly assignments..

supposed to do them w/o referring to the notes..

but wat did i do??

even before i started doing..i ransacked my whole file to dig out every single notes so tat i could refer to them..so..tell me..wat's the point of doing it???

physics..

hai..haven been doin my tutorials since the topic on 'physics of fluids'..

powerful rite??

accounting everything..

i still hav at least 4 physics tutorials left undone which are due long long time ago..

wat the crap?!?

wanted to do them during that week of holidays in march..

but as expected..

i didn't even touch a single one..

hai..

utterly disappointed in myself!!

arrg!!

so damn angry with myself..for being such an idoitic me..who fails to keep to her promises to herself..

sumtimes..i feel tat..

my life is like a lie..

everything i do is like an act..

i cant find the true reason to life..

maybe i will someday..

but when willl this 'someday' eventually arrive??

someone..

pls tell me...

wat shld i do frm now??

i'm really confused..

i'm not sure wat's my goals in life..

i'm not sure wat i wanna do when i grow up..

i'm not sure if watever i do is right or wrong..

i need someone to guide me through!!

but i had enuff of hearig things like..

"ya..i'm here for u.."

"u can always count on me.."

i'm not trying to say tat i don appreciate them..

i REALLY do appreciate!!

but..wat's the use when it's juz all talk but no actions??
[nope..i'm not shooting at any1 in particular here]

hai..

tink in the end..

i still muz count on myself..

hai..

i'm NOT sure if i'm able to do it..

but wat the crap..

no one cares anyways..

life is all abt being..

me myself i..

isn't tat true??

ps: sry if i offended any1..i'm juz so damn pissed off with myself tat i cant stop complaining..my apologies to any1 who's offended..

wee..the bbq last nite was fun!! haha...a total of 23 o5s19-ians turned up last nite..haha..teachers are supposed to turn up too..but..guess tat they r all busy with their own stuff..tat's why they are not there last nite..hai..miss out the fun..

it was kinda sucessful..but tink..there's really too much food le la.haha..$140 worth of stuff excluding the 90 chicken wings and 180 satays and a big tray of mee hoon..haha..it's really alot alot of food..haha..

it has been really a long time since i had fun at a bbq..haha...rmb the last bbq i went is at boi boi's aunt's house..haha..

me n boi boi...check out the amt of food we ate tat nite..haha..

anyways..really had fun last nite..everything is juz rite..the place..the atmosphere..the peeps..the fun..everything is juz rite!! haha..

rmb how the game 'twister' [sponsored by simin] had brought so much laughter and funny poses of the players..rmb how we had 'welcomed' jin yi with our sef- made drink tat comprises of irish cream,lemons,honey n lime..it looked soo yucky..hahaha..it looked like how cream coloured ppt is formed in clear soln..yucks..

anyways..there are really things tat made me soo damn unwilling to end the bbq juz like tat last nite..there are as follows..
-the giant shopping spree with lynn,willy,jiesheng n chengwai
-the swing game tat i had with david
-the gu ji gu ji 'fight' i had with deqi
-the cute n funny actions of yongkian tat never failed to tickle me
-the talk i had with weilong before i went home at the playground

all in all..juz wanna say tks to all who had helped in and made yesterday's bbq such a sucessful one..u all had realli been a GREAT help!! special tks to the chefs of the nite who had provided us with all the delicious food..and of course..not forgetting those who started the fire burning..well done guys!!! cheers to all who are present..for bringing loads and loads of laughter and fun to the bbq!! =D

warning!! tis entry might be abit borin for some of u..

dunno why..suddenly..at tis particular point of time in my life..i feel tat i'm as able as wat i used to tink tat i am..i found out tat i'm not the yunjie tat every1 tinks i m..i'm not sure abt tis..but frm frenz..past n present..they always feel tat i'm a happy ger..mayb it's my actions tat made them hav tis kinda perception..

abit on wat i feel i am..i'm the kinda ger who will try make every around me happy w/o asking anything back..i'm the kinda ger who will treasure frenship more than anything else..i'm the kinda ger that will make sure tat i had left a good impression of myself in the eyes of the others..i'm tat kinda ger tat will make sure tat others wun b worryin abt me and tis is why i tend to keep everything to myself..me myself i..i'm the kinda ger tat will allow my emotions to get over me..i tend to let my emotions control my actions..

recently many different things happened..and i dunno why..i juz cant seem to solve every1 of them..tat is so unlike the past yunjie..the yunjie last time will make sure she will b able to find the soln to watever probs she hav..but..it's like sooo damn different now..the me now..will juz let the probs stay n linger aroung..affecting all my actions..and i'll still wun find the motivation to find their soln..i'm not sure why too..

mayb it's becos things all happen at the same time..and i juz don hav the enuff energy to solve them..i know tat the frenz around me are always there..lendin a hand when possible..but..mayb i'm juz numb by all these probs..too numb to find any soln..i don hav the energy to charge on n find them..i'm so useless!! sumtimes..i even tink tat..mayb if i juz don care abt them..they will soon disappear..yes..it's super irresponsible of me..i knew tat..but..i juz cant help it..i'm really tired le..

these days..esp for the past few weeks...everything i do is really draining out all my energy..i juz cant find the time to relax..i'm like living my life on a super fast-paced bullet train..there's no time tat i can stop n rest..aahh!!!

anyways..if i keep on blabbering at my life..tink tis entry will b super duper long le..haha..juz wanna say to every1..let's all work towards a goal of a better life yeah? jiayou to all!! =)

>>things not generally not goin well for us..the distance btw us seems to b further n further..is tis a good sign?? mayb it's a blessing in disguise..mayb it's juz better for us if things stay tis way..<<

1st day of term 2 today!!!

back in school…without realli finishing my hw though..hahs..

had a new time-table today..hai hao lahz..finishing sch kinda early on some days..haha..yeah!!

but..wat's realli interesting today is tat..there's a new member to our class..haha..jing yi..tat's his name..but duno got spell correctly not la..haha..pls do not take any offence if it's wrong..haha..

anyways..before he is here..kinda worried or him..scare tat he cant fit into our class..haha..den willy there..i recall him saying..'later our class hav top 6 instead of top5..' haha..i find it quite funni lehs..haha.. -.-!!!

anyways..i cum to realise tat this new guy is actually a fren of an o5s19-ians..jiesheng..the really tall guy with goldfish-like eyes..haha..den summore..tis new guy..he dun look like those cannot make it de..so..i tink this top 6 incident wun happen bahs..haha..yeah..hope tat we will still hav fun as a class..even after the joining of this new member..let us show him how fun we can be!! o5s19 rox!! =D

haha..tat is all for today..gonna go chiong hw le..still hav tons and tons of them left uncompleted..hai..this thur hav stupid integration lect test..next mon is dumb chem SPA..omg!!!

all the best and..jiayou jiayou jiayou to all in o5s19!!! *grins* =)

boo.. =(

things are juz not goin rite tis week..

-- had a big quarrel with my parents on mon n tue nite.. [don remind me of tis!!]
-- having a super bad sore thorat now..tink hav to spam strepsils like crazy..
-- holidays ending soon and still hav lotsa hw left undone..running out of time..haiz..

but dunno why..i miss school..maybe is miss the peeps there ba...haha..

miss all of u!! =_(

esp the ever-fun..ever-rocking o5s19!!! ^-^

the BEST class ever!! =)

went to kbox AGAIN on fri after sch..haha..went again cos of the main reason tat my darling lynn suddenly became so darn enthu abt kbox..haha..so we decided to accompany her there..haha..

before meeting the rest of them..lynn..peiyin..simin..i accompanied deqi home to take money..haha..upon reaching her home..i was so damn fascinated by the organ..haha..it's like super damn nice..haha..deqi played a few pieces on her organ for me n yuenyan [went to deqi's house too] to listen..it's like SUPER damn nice!! i also wanna learn!! aahh!! deqi..wo hao pei fu ni ar!!! haha..wee!! =D

anyways..as usual..we r late..haha..kept lynn waiting for like 10-15 mins..omg..i terribly sorry lynn..haha..we went into kbox at around 2.30pm..haha..started with the first song.."first day" by sun yan zi!!haha..we became super super high!! haha..esp lynn..haha..

anyways..i had fun again tat day at kbox!! haha..was really glad tat lynn darling had fun too!! haha..next time we MUZ go again huh!! so tat simin n peiyin can pei yang their mo qi..so tat deqi n peiyin can sing tat wu ding duet again..so tat we can all ahv fun like we had again!! haha..tat's a promise made!! haha..we will go dere n rock the place again!! haha..u guys rox siaz!! =D

wee..the angel n mortal game in my class is finally over!! haha..even though it's not tat successful in the entire process of playing the game [the gers are the onli ones doin stuff for their mortals]..haha..but in the end..i was really happy tat almost every1 got a special gift frm their respective angels!!! =D

for me..haha..i got a super nice angel..chengwai..who gave me a super cute keychain..it's realli like damn cute!! haha..thankiew sooo much!! =)

my dearest mortal..willy beh..hope he will like the gifts i had for him..haha..and juz wanna say.."hey mortal..take care of ur injuries wor..and also..muz jiayou for 'A"s tis yr..all the best to u..but don be too stressed up..cos..ur angel here will always be with u!!" =D

mortal willy and angel me!!! =D

gift frm angel to me!!! =D

angel chengwai and mortal me!! =D

went to the photonics lab during fri's physics lesson..not as interesting as i had expected..haha..but..the thing tat realli kept me so excited is the super expensive [~ $200] safety goggles tat we hav to wear..haha..since it's a super damn rare chance for us to step into this photonics lad..haha..we r all crazy..n started taking loads n loads of pictures..haha..enjoy them.. =)