FML! 1) for studying so much and still find myself struggling with e afa paper earlier... 2) for experiencing the complete state of a blank mind once i saw the qns.. 3) for having to hide frm everyone to ensure that i dun burst out into tears in front of them..
i had never felt sooo discouraged with a test ever before! =((( i'm having a real bad feeling for it and as i was telling jocelyn, i bet the marker dun really have much to award me with marks though he wuld hav wanted to pass me..
see how bad is it? :s
but..thank goodness for this bunch of ppl i have..
1) eileen! the one who went thru e test with me and kinda knew tat dere's sumting wrong with me after the test..and texted her concerns when we parted for home cos she knws that she cant say it in front of me..if not she wuld hav to see me cry! yeps i'll stay strong babe! thankews!
2) shaun! for yeps..trying to console me as much as he culd..with trying to insist that hopefully the bell curve will help me pass thru the test..i seriously hope the bell curve will help, dearrr!
3) jocelyn! for the exp calls/sms-es over frm aussie whenever i needed help in wrk or when i just needed someone to rant to! though not literally here in sg, u're always felt morally!
4) dearie peiyin! for the call earlier..when u just wanted to ask abt the paper..u didnt knw how seriously thankful i felt when my phone rang and your name appeared! i actually needed someone to talk to!
looks like i wuld hav to try reallyyyy hard for the next coming assignment and the second class test to make sure that i wuldnt hav to retake afa next semester! bet james kwan will ask me (if i can get to class early) abt the test tmr night! and so..i am not going to be in class so early as i seriously wuldnt knw how am i gonna answer him :(
26 August 2010
i'm worried :( for the nail on my right thumb that will drop anytime...
i dunnn wannnnn!!!
25 August 2010
time-check: 4.15pm on a wed place: AT HOME!
blurpoot me got my right thumb slammed with dad's car door this morning upon reaching office! dad was so nice! to offer to send me to wrk cos i was really feeling tired frm the previous late nights i had due to consecutive days of lessons and rushing for AFA revision + SDMA presentation! :s
i must be drifting like a zombie tat i accidentally 'giaped' my right thumb while closing the door! initial pain was dere of cos! but i thought it was nothing serious so i still decided to walk up to office with e tissue pressing against it to try stop e bleeding!
it turns out that the pain turned to be too much to handle tat tears started flowing :( and it wasnt helping when i had to see ppl who asked wad happened in office..not tat i dun appreciate their concern, but it's just..it induced the tears further! girls who hav active tear glands like me shld understand! :(
the bleeding didnt stop..the swell became quite huge! thks to jason & vincent for the plasters! didnt knw to laugh or wad when jason dropped the WHOLE box of plasters on my desk while walking past my desk! but it was really nice of him and yeps i was touched :)
the ppl whom gradually walked into the office asked and expressed their concerns when they saw my teary eyes..created quite a commotion i realised! after thinkin back now! dad n mum called to ask abt me too :) alice and the rest of them were fussing over it and kept insisting that i shld go c a doc cos a car door slam can be quite serious! when i myself thought it was actually nothing..even the usual bo chup herbert was quite concerned :)
after their persuasion and when the swelling became bigger..i then decided to go c the doc! eric still purposely drove me down dere! cos i didnt knw where the doc near my company is!
saw the doc..she commented that it was quite bad frm all the bleedin and swelling..asked me to pray n hope nothing is fractured (which i will onlu knw a few days later)..she cleaned and addressed my thumb and zomggg wrapped it up with a bandage and now..i hv bak zhang look-alike right thumb! lol feels quite handicapped cos i gotta hv to do everything sooo slowly :(
went back home after visiting the doc..i bet everyone on the bus was looking at me! with the red eyes and fat bandage on my finger! hahas luckily bus was quite empty :p
was reading all those sms-es of concern that i received frm my colleagues (cos apparently they were the only ones who knew abt this incident) on my way home and at that instant, i realli feel sooo loved! seriously :) ppl who knw me well know tat i had been complaining abt hw sucky my wrk can be! but the ppl i met dere are generally nice :) i'm just really thankful to their concern and touched by their actions + words when sumting like this happened to me..when they can actually dun care and carried on with their wrk..
of cos! not forgetting my dearie py too! who accompanied me with her love-filled sms-es thruout! ♥
wad's better were the things i received when i reached home :)
shaun actually came to see me before going for his class after hearing me complain to him while i was at the doc in the morn :) you were the 1st to see my bak zhang thumb! keke though he cant really do much to help it..but seeing him kinda lessen the pain i had! (: thankews dear for coming down purposely! ♥♥ you! :)
mum was at home and i can see that upon seeing my injury, she was actually super worried abt me and cld like feel the pain too :) thks mum for helping me with everything! ♥♥
that's enuff love frm everyone i received! somewhat like reached the quota liao :P keke! later i will have a filled-with-love home-cooked dinner frm mum and i'll b on my way to sch! with 2 PAs waiting for me :P
seriously thankful for this life that i hav :) yunjie hearts u all! ♥
22 August 2010
bewildered is what i can only felt when it happened.. and probably coupled with a tinge of disappointment also..
those eyes which you looked towards us and just scanned away in the nxt second..i seriously cannot fathom why..
what had happened in the past doesnt mean u dun even acknowledge the ppl u were once considered close to? the 'we-are-total-strangers' feeling was what i felt u were trying to imply..
geesh i know i can never do sumting like tat..ever!
august is so fast coming to an end already! it had been a reallyyy busy august! esp in terms of schwrk :( this coming week is the worst! praying that i have the energy and the faith to hold and fight on!
updates! of the fun times i had!
family buffet dinner at raffles! 31.o7.1o
camwhoring at py's hse after project meeting o1.o8.1o
o5s8 dinner date at marina square! o3.o8.1o
virgin trip dwn to haji lane! o8.o8.1o
john's belated 22nd celebration! 12.o8.1o
rocky's pizza & the daily scoop treat! 14.o8.1o
camwhoring with leen's macbook! p.s: i was the FIRST to explore with it! YAYS =D
♥♥ island creamery treat with loves! (: 15.o8.1o
loreal make-up wrkshop in office! 17.o8.1o
bakerzin project meeting cum dinner date 17.o8.1o
double bday bash buffet dinner! 19.o8.1o
and yeps! more camwhoring with leen's mac! 21.o8.1o
the long-awaited dinnerdate!! =) 21.o8.1o
horrible week starting from tmr oh greats cos yj's feeling the super early pre-mon blues alr! :(
17 August 2010
happy 6th mth anniversary, loves (:
you will never knew how i am always... counting my blessings to have u here with me :)
the surprise (:
被爱是幸福的 :)
there is only one happiness in life -- to love and to be loved George Sand, 1804-1876, French Novelist
07 August 2010
you're the reason to why i am grinning silly-ly to myself
06 August 2010
Mariah Carey - I Stay In Love Dying inside 'cause I can't stand it Make or break up Can't take this madness We don't even really know why All I know is baby I try and try so hard To keep our love alive
If you don't know me at this point Then I highly doubt you ever will I really need you to give me That unconditional love I used to feel It's a mistake if we just erase it From our hearts and minds and I know
[Chorus:] We said let go But I kept on hanging on Inside I know it's over You're really gone It's killing me 'cause there ain't nothing That I can do Baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself That you'll come back around And I try to front like "Oh well" Each time you let me down See I can't get over you now No matter what I do But baby, baby I stay in love with you
Na na na na na na na na na Na na na na na na na na na Na na na na na na na na na Baby, I stay in love with you
It cuts so deep It hurts down to my soul My friends tell me I ain't the same no more We still need each other When we stumble and fall How we gonna act Like what we had Ain't nothin' at all now
Hey, what I wanna do is Ride shotgun next to you With the top down like we used to Hit the block Proud in the SUV We both know our heart is breaking Can we learn from our mistakes I can't last one moment alone Now go I know
We said let go But I kept on hanging on Inside I know it's over You're really gone It's killing me 'cause there ain't nothing That I can do Baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself That you'll come back around And I try to front like "Oh well" Each time you let me down See I can't get over you now No matter what I do But baby, baby I stay in love with you