Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru toiu yo
Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru to iu yo
Tadori tsuku sono saki ni wa
Nani ga bokura wo matteru?
Nigeru tame ja naku yume ou tame ni
Tabi ni deta hazusa tooi natsu no ano hi
Ashita sae mieta nara tame iki mo nai kedo
Nagare ni sakarau fune no you ni
Ima wa mae he susume
Kurushimi no tsukita basho ni
Shiawase ga matsu toiu yo
Boku wa mada sagashite iru
Kisetsu hazure no himawari
Kobushi nigirishime asahi wo mateba
Akai tsume ato ni namida kirari ochiru
Kodoku ni mo nareta nara
Tsuki akari tayori ni
Hane naki tsubasa de tobi tatou
Motto mae he susume
Amagumo ga kireta nara
Nureta michi kagayaku
Yami dake ga oshiete kureru
Tsuyoi tsuyoi hikari
Tsuyoku mae he susume
for the first time ever..i seriously wished that i was already in my thirties..
had never felt so helpless before

i rmb how willy used to tell me back in sch in e past that i shld be less giving-in towards e ppl i know around me who tend to take advantage to prevent myself frm being bullied & asked to do things that shldnt be my responsibility...but it seems that it just cant get into my mind..
it was really a super hectic day at wrk for these 2 days..esp yesterday! i was so hungry when i knocked off at 530 cos i survived on only 2 slices of bread & milo for both breakfast & lunch in order to finish my never-ending wrk load! i'm someone who would rather stay in during lunch than to do OT after wrk! :S
today was worst :((( though it wasn't as busy but cos everyone was kinda bullying me =(
the stress frm wrk is equivalent to wad i face when i'm having my exams..the decision to the releasing of orders is tricky at times..the way to speak to those crafty salesppl is wad i still hav to try master..but wad i couldn't bear were those empty promises that e salesppl will always make! promising that pymts will be in on time & so it would be fine for them to deliver the stocks to the customers first..being the naive xiao mei, they will always get their way..thus, i am foreseeing LOADS of explaining which i would have to do when my manager reviews this last quarter's results & demanding the reason to why my dept didnt reach the target that they set! it's not the 1st time anyway..i would just hav to bear with all those sickening pairs of eyes looking towards me during the quarterly meetings when i am being questioned >.<
i kinda reached to e brink to wad i could withstand today that i couldnt help but to rawr at this poor salesman..which made me felt super sorry afterwards cos it wasn't actually him only which made my tues such a rotten one..i hope he wouldn't hate me for it!
tmr is the last day i am gonna try rush all the wrk i hav! cos i'm not intending to stay for long in office on thurs as it's supposedly to b a 1/2 day work only! the usual practice for my dept is that we are not entitled to tat 1/2 day on new yr eve cos it's yr end closing & we hav to ensure everything is completed nicely & blar blar blar..but nevertheless..i'm so looking forward to dinner on thurs nite! :D
tmr will be a better day! *i hope*
whoosh! the last 21st party which i am gonna attend this 2oo9 i guess! went for yuenyan's treetop party last night! =) loves her dress! =) and her poly frens! super damn enthu can! haha the bunch of us..only a few of us turned up due to the others having their other commitments going on..the few of us just self-entertained ourselves with e camera! yesh e camera AGAIN! haha makes me more tempted to get e DSLR cos my camera getting cui-er by each day le! haha..

HAPPY 21ST TO BDAY GIRL YUENYAN! =D
went for 3D avatar with shaun & david & jinyi before the party! show was not too bad..just that it's freaking long! and cinema was super cold! -.- but the 3D effects are kinda real! haha it looks like u can literally touch those things that fall from the sky in the show! cool! but hav to don the super huge 3D glasses..keep drooping off my nose :( cos i dun hav a sharp one to hold it! keke!
was still early after the show ended so the 3 of us..shaun, david & i kinda rotted in the nothing-much westmall for almost 2 hrs!
PRESENTING TO U ALL..THE 2 GUYS THAT I CANT HAV WITHOUT IN MY LIFE!!! =DD
IT WAS REALLY A HUGE BLESSING TO ME THAT WE CAN STILL REMAINED SO CLOSE DESPITE THE FACT THAT WE HAD ALREADY GRADUATED LIKE ALMOST 5 YEARS AGO! AND I REALLY DO LOVE YOU GUYS' COMPANY & HOW U TWO WILL OBLIGED TO MY WANTS IF I EVER ASK FOR! =D
IT WAS REALLY FUN YESTERDAY WITH ALL THE CAM-WHORING ANTICS & THE ATTEMPTS WE TRIED TO TAKE A CLOSE SHOT OF EACH OTHER'S FACES TO MAKE A JOKE OUT OF IT! too bad david was the only one who got sabo-ed! haha! I GOT SO TIRED FROM ALL THE LAUGHING BUT I AM NOT COMPLAINING ABT THAT AT ALL! =)))
LOOKING FORWARD TO MORE & MORE YEARS DOWN THE ROAD OF ENDLESS FUN WITH U TWO! *FATHUGS FATHUGS*
okies i knw i'm dragging it but i will blog abt my 21st party another time! i wuld need to find a day when i hav nothing to do & just to sit & blog abt my 21st! haha but pictures are already up on fb! =DD
ooohhhss! finally i got the time to upload some outdated photos!
first thing first!
I OFFICIALLY STEPPED INTO THE ADULTHOOD GANG!
congrats to me for being yet ANOTHER year older & slowly stepping into the era of the ageing population~
lols! nevertheless..i had an awesome 21st party last wkend! still in the midst of collating the pics & finding time to compress & upload them =P
THANKS to all who took time out to come down to enjoy the party with me! LOADS & LOADS OF THKS & GRATITUDE to those who blessed me with their well wishes & pampered me with the lovely presents! and more imptly..those CARDS for me!! i always find cards that bring the msg across always much more impt than wad is always considered the main leads [the actual presents in this case]..was kinda touched when i read thru them one by one, word by word!! :D trust me! i will really tresured & cherished every single one :D
nahs i shall blog abt my bday another time! mayb in my next entry? =)
finally took some time out to compress the pics from my company's D&D event on 18.12.o9!
it was my 1st time ever to attend a company's proper formal Dinner & Dance Event [since i missed it last year]..it was actually quite a good experience..at least to how i feel! it was the night where everyone let their hair down & truly enjoyed the night!

old sch! The Beatles!! :D
more pics are uploaded on fb! *winks!
it was really a night where everyone's camera snapped pics like nobody's business! haha good that i actually get to see the other side of some ppl who always look so serious at wrk! :)
sidetrack: i love my dress! =PP





I AM BACK !!! :D
yeaps actually i was already back yesterday super duper early in the morning! culdnt got up for wrk in the morn so decided to take a rest day :) haha
the japan trip was AWESOME! *yays* the entire trip was filled with yummy food + desserts + beautiful scenery + great company + ultimate fun! it's not like we enjoyed every single minute but it was really nice with the company! ;)
gonna need some time before i upload those pics! too many pics le :P haha gonna b busy with D&D and my 21st bday party! so i wuld slowly upoad the photos on a day-to-day basis! =D enjoy the pics! =)))
time check: 11.34pm
i'm zooming off to jap in a few hrs time! :D and wun be back til 16dec! where after that would be a CRAZY BUSY 3 days before my awesome [i hope] 21st party! ;)
gonna snooze in 10mins time so that i wuld not be late for my early morning flight in e morn! at last i am entitled to the break i've been waiting for! :D
hope i didnt forget anything impt! yawns~



celebrated chengwai's 21st bday on fri night! was nice catching up with them all again! glad that they all had cleared their exams & are all somehow enjoying life relaxing! got to know a few new frens & became a little closer to those whom i dun really know beforehand :) realised how small this world is! =)
the guys are as always..full of nonsense! haha but i guess that's the thing that kinda bonded us all tgt! and i am not gonna complain abt that *winks
caught twilight saga:new moon with dearie pei, shaun & david earlier on and..hmm not really a fantastic movie i would say..probably better becos of the eye candies in the acting cast! =P werewolf vs vampire! haha this new younger guy was hot! with his bod..he would probably attract more fans this way! hahs but edward is still cool in his vampire appearance! ;)
had the uber sinful kfc for dinner after the show :S still feeling abit bloated frm the fishy zinger! :(
poor pei going thru the dreadful process of the weekly dental visits now since she's gonna be putting her braces soon..i recalled the painful times i had in the past when i still had mine..bad memories! but still i didnt regret putting on braces cos they gave me straight teeth & the little bit of confidence which i nv had before..so dear, ENDURE!!! jiayous! *fathugs!
got this awesome early 21st gift frm my aunts & uncles! loves it..and i still kinda cant get over the fact that they actually spent so much for my prezzie! it was really a good surprise to see it lying on my table when i got home earlier on! THANKS TO ALL! *muacks*
and i'm currently hooked on to this song:
Leona Lewis - Happy
Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't you take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't you love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I can't stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah
Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
But all these days, they feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me out of here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
And watch this life pass me by, pass me by
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh
So any turns that i can't see,
I'll count on a stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy
booosss :(((
wasnt really satisfied and happy with this semester results..no doubt i did said that i'll be happy if i'm managed to clear these 3 irritating theory modules in the midst of exams back then..
i guess ppl do ask for more at all times and wad i was hoping was at least a distinction in taxation..considering the fact that i spent e most of my time preparing for tat :s
my hopes were crushed totally when i saw the 3 CRs results on the rmit website for this semester's modules: sg taxation & audit & accting theory..turns out that i missed DI for taxation by 2 points only! boos!
ppl around me kept trying to console by saying that it's already good enough since i passed them all and it's actually not-too-bad results for such modules which really did drained all my brain juice n storage space trying to rmb all the theory stuff during exams that time..but i knew to me..it's not enough..
ppl do reflect this one bad habit of theirs - which is to always be NOT contented with what we already have despite e fact that is probably the best we could ever achieved!
and i know it's super evident in myself! *boos!
but i just cant help it...
rawrrrs! guess i hav to start packing for the trip on next wed really soon!
cos i'm gonna b so busy these next few days! :S
tmr & fri nights + sat [hopefully new moon can be realised!] + sun + nxt mon nite = have things scheduled already -.-'''
wonder how quiet will the office be like tmr since they're not around anymore..axed down 3 salesppl who resigned tgt at this same timing *crossing fingers that they are still given their end-yr bonus though they left a mth b4 they shld actually hav it!
guess i hav no more excuses to loiter to the sales dept area in the mornings anymore =P haha! no one to chat with too..since the closer salesppl aren't around anymore..boo hopefully the remaining ppl wun make me hav to slog my guts even harder than how drained i am already as now at work! =X
but anyways i satisfied my craving for AV's laksa this noon! *yums! thks ah ben for driving philip n i out for lunch =D