Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru toiu yo
Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru to iu yo
Tadori tsuku sono saki ni wa
Nani ga bokura wo matteru?
Nigeru tame ja naku yume ou tame ni
Tabi ni deta hazusa tooi natsu no ano hi
Ashita sae mieta nara tame iki mo nai kedo
Nagare ni sakarau fune no you ni
Ima wa mae he susume
Kurushimi no tsukita basho ni
Shiawase ga matsu toiu yo
Boku wa mada sagashite iru
Kisetsu hazure no himawari
Kobushi nigirishime asahi wo mateba
Akai tsume ato ni namida kirari ochiru
Kodoku ni mo nareta nara
Tsuki akari tayori ni
Hane naki tsubasa de tobi tatou
Motto mae he susume
Amagumo ga kireta nara
Nureta michi kagayaku
Yami dake ga oshiete kureru
Tsuyoi tsuyoi hikari
Tsuyoku mae he susume
30 June 2010
gahs turns out that i still lacked the courage to do what i was supposed to!
but life still goes on! haha..shall just take a step at a time (:
it's ain't my fault for being soft-hearted -.-
it's ain't my fault for being soft-hearted -.-
finally done with all the weeping for the jap drama serial ["One Litre of Tears"] which mr nice guy :) had soooooo sweetly converted the videos for me so i can watch it thru my iPhone on the go! (:
a rather (read: SUPERBLY) sad show which made me having to stop watching (at certain parts of the show) on the bus/trains (like literally) cos tears were already brimming in my eyes! and no way i'm gonna let myself 'throw face' and start crying in public! :s wonder why are my tear ducts sooooo active!
the past last week had been sooo busy! finally met up with the MI ppl! spent some close quality time-out with dearie pei! welcome-jocelyn-back dinner with e girls! and though the week ended with a really bad friday..the consolation was being able to seeee michy dear that night! and sent her off to korea at the airport for her exchange program! i'll be missing her for the 7 weeks she's dere! seeing the pics she had uploaded on fb..happy to know that she's enjoying every single min of her time dere! :) and when the wkends arrive, it's always the best time of the week! :) had a totally ♥♥ fruitful sweets sat with loves and spent the entire sun lazing at ah ma hse! nothing more i could hav asked for! :)
i'll post pics up soonies! from all the outings! :) so that this bloggie wuld serve as a memory guide for me as i grow older each day! it'll be nice if one day in the future (and if this blog is still around)..to sit and just read thru wad i had done over e journey of my life! happy/sad/angsty stuff..all that happened had made me grew wiser overtime and probably some even served as lessons to be learnt so that the same wrongdoing wuld not occur again =)
so totally in love with the song frm the drama that i'm actually putting it on replay mode at this moment! reminded me of wadever that had happened in the show and made me wanna cherish the ppl i hav even more (: received news abt the passing of a fren's grandma and felt sry for being not really able to help much but to just offer my consolations and wishing that she will feel better over time as i believe time is really a healing factor..a crucial one indeed! rmbed how time had helped me to get over the death of my own grandma back then..and yeps i'm recovering from it and instead of tinkin abt why did the incident had happened so abruptly, i choose to now think that it would be better for things to end up this way..rather than if she wuld hav to survive and endure all the hardship frm wadever illness she had!
it taught me not to take anyone for granted..it's not true that though ppl say that they will stick by forever, there's nothing known as forever i guess..we can never predict wad wuld happen the next day or even just the nxt min! thus instead of being stagnant beneath any unhappiness that we might face, we shld try to move on! (*hints hints) and..instead of being too paranoid of anything bad wuld happen, we shld try take things in a simpler mode and live each passing day as carefree as we can! instead of wrying abt whoever may just leave u one day, mayb we shld convert the energy to tinkin abt how we shld try to make them feel that they are really cherished by us :)
i do wanna be cherished too! who doesnt rights? :p in my spate of life at this instant, i'm glad that i'm still receiving the love from my family though there are times when we do hav our disagreements/quarrels! i'm glad that i do still hav a job, though wrk's really get damn sucky at times, but i'm thankful for the colleagues who act as my pillars of moral support which i need at wrk! i'm glad to have my dear dearies/buddies/girlfriends/friends whom i know i can always rely upon no matter wad! and of cos, i'm glad to have my dear boy who may not seem to be the best candidate in the others' eyes or in everything he do..but at least to me, he's one of the bestest gift that i'm blissfully being bestowed with :) thankews for everything!
yeps i'm thankful to be alive! kicking alive healthily (:
there's still a looonnggg way dwn this path which i chose to set upon and would not wan to waste any unnecessary energy bothering abt things which dun require my attention! so pls do ask me to STOP THINKIN WAY TOO MUCH WITHIN MY MIND and scaring myself in a way abt things which i dun wan to happen but just worried that it may just happen one day! i'm always the kind-of paranoid person who will usually think abt negative results of everything! ppl who really understand me well would hav knw this fact! pls try to change me!
it must be the iced yuen yang drink that i had earlier on which kept me & my mind to be still awake at this timing of close to 2am though dere's still work early tmr morning! :s and though i knw i shldnt be complaining..but i'm really seriously dreading wrk tmr! not due to any disagreements at wrk but more of a personal reason :(
i wished for all the angels i hav to give me the sufficient courage to handle the issue on hand tmr morning! i wuldnt wan to be stuck in the rut every week -.- i pray for a really cool solution which wuld allow me to escape frm the problem in the best way to appear in my dreams tonight! *crossing fingers real tightlyyyy
a rather (read: SUPERBLY) sad show which made me having to stop watching (at certain parts of the show) on the bus/trains (like literally) cos tears were already brimming in my eyes! and no way i'm gonna let myself 'throw face' and start crying in public! :s wonder why are my tear ducts sooooo active!
the past last week had been sooo busy! finally met up with the MI ppl! spent some close quality time-out with dearie pei! welcome-jocelyn-back dinner with e girls! and though the week ended with a really bad friday..the consolation was being able to seeee michy dear that night! and sent her off to korea at the airport for her exchange program! i'll be missing her for the 7 weeks she's dere! seeing the pics she had uploaded on fb..happy to know that she's enjoying every single min of her time dere! :) and when the wkends arrive, it's always the best time of the week! :) had a totally ♥♥ fruitful sweets sat with loves and spent the entire sun lazing at ah ma hse! nothing more i could hav asked for! :)
i'll post pics up soonies! from all the outings! :) so that this bloggie wuld serve as a memory guide for me as i grow older each day! it'll be nice if one day in the future (and if this blog is still around)..to sit and just read thru wad i had done over e journey of my life! happy/sad/angsty stuff..all that happened had made me grew wiser overtime and probably some even served as lessons to be learnt so that the same wrongdoing wuld not occur again =)
so totally in love with the song frm the drama that i'm actually putting it on replay mode at this moment! reminded me of wadever that had happened in the show and made me wanna cherish the ppl i hav even more (: received news abt the passing of a fren's grandma and felt sry for being not really able to help much but to just offer my consolations and wishing that she will feel better over time as i believe time is really a healing factor..a crucial one indeed! rmbed how time had helped me to get over the death of my own grandma back then..and yeps i'm recovering from it and instead of tinkin abt why did the incident had happened so abruptly, i choose to now think that it would be better for things to end up this way..rather than if she wuld hav to survive and endure all the hardship frm wadever illness she had!
it taught me not to take anyone for granted..it's not true that though ppl say that they will stick by forever, there's nothing known as forever i guess..we can never predict wad wuld happen the next day or even just the nxt min! thus instead of being stagnant beneath any unhappiness that we might face, we shld try to move on! (*hints hints) and..instead of being too paranoid of anything bad wuld happen, we shld try take things in a simpler mode and live each passing day as carefree as we can! instead of wrying abt whoever may just leave u one day, mayb we shld convert the energy to tinkin abt how we shld try to make them feel that they are really cherished by us :)
i do wanna be cherished too! who doesnt rights? :p in my spate of life at this instant, i'm glad that i'm still receiving the love from my family though there are times when we do hav our disagreements/quarrels! i'm glad that i do still hav a job, though wrk's really get damn sucky at times, but i'm thankful for the colleagues who act as my pillars of moral support which i need at wrk! i'm glad to have my dear dearies/buddies/girlfriends/friends whom i know i can always rely upon no matter wad! and of cos, i'm glad to have my dear boy who may not seem to be the best candidate in the others' eyes or in everything he do..but at least to me, he's one of the bestest gift that i'm blissfully being bestowed with :) thankews for everything!
yeps i'm thankful to be alive! kicking alive healthily (:
there's still a looonnggg way dwn this path which i chose to set upon and would not wan to waste any unnecessary energy bothering abt things which dun require my attention! so pls do ask me to STOP THINKIN WAY TOO MUCH WITHIN MY MIND and scaring myself in a way abt things which i dun wan to happen but just worried that it may just happen one day! i'm always the kind-of paranoid person who will usually think abt negative results of everything! ppl who really understand me well would hav knw this fact! pls try to change me!
it must be the iced yuen yang drink that i had earlier on which kept me & my mind to be still awake at this timing of close to 2am though dere's still work early tmr morning! :s and though i knw i shldnt be complaining..but i'm really seriously dreading wrk tmr! not due to any disagreements at wrk but more of a personal reason :(
i wished for all the angels i hav to give me the sufficient courage to handle the issue on hand tmr morning! i wuldnt wan to be stuck in the rut every week -.- i pray for a really cool solution which wuld allow me to escape frm the problem in the best way to appear in my dreams tonight! *crossing fingers real tightlyyyy
19 June 2010
ooh hoo! some overdue pictures! :D
o5s19 xlb buffet dinner 11.o6.1o
it's been wayyyyy toooo loonnnggg since we all met up! :) all the catching up and camwhoring is one thing that i truly missed (: it was fun having dinner tgt though seated at a long table n culdnt get to really talk to every single person..but the presence of each and everyone that night seriously made all the coordinating and preparation of the gathering worthwhile! we even had nicholas as special guest! who happened to b on holiday back in sg frm studying in US! pity that quite a few peeps whom i do miss but culdnt make it for the dinner :( but there's always another time i guess! just love it that how no matter how long ago we had graduated or how not often we meet up, we all still can maintain this closeness btw us like how it was like back then in JJ and still not hav any awkward silence like how i may experience with ppl whom i dun realli meet as often :D i bet it was the times we spent tgt back then in sch which brought us this far (:
picnic at marina barrage with my dear gfs! 12.o6.1o
♥♥♥♥♥♥
woots! finally got my chance to go dwn to the pretty relaxing marina barrage for a PICNIC! the picnic that mich and i had been anticipating for sooooooo lonnnngggg! hahaha! and we were so glad that pydearie culd join us this time round! rmbed she culdnt join for our previous picnic cos she needs to b babysitter for cute jedi! ;) it was fun! just sitting on the vintagey blue mat surrounded with all the good foodie/drinks and of cos..also having the BESTEST company! :D
didnt get the chance to fly kites though :( which was supposedly everyone's main aim to do upon reachin barrage..hahs..but i still enjoyed with just munchin on those junk food + camwhoring + chatting with my dearies! (:
i always find it how amazing it is for py & i to becum as close :) probably cos it's embedded in our hearts/characters or it was fate that brought both of us tgt..or probably it's cos if the numerous time spent tgt, no matter is play/complain/bitch/cry/shopping/ktv-ing/studying or wadever! it seems like we can do sooooo much things tgt :D and yeps i'm really glad to hav her with me in my life which made the decision to befriend her back then in jj to be the wise one!
yj hearts u totally babe! ♥
as for michy! woo hoo~! i culdnt help to start smiling and realised how blissful i am to b able to get a job in my current company now which started this frenship btw us both! i rmbed michy was also wrking as a temp staff back then when i started not long ago too! probably it was the right time or wad which got us acquainted as colleagues first, then fren, then buddies for now :) it nice to hav maintained this bond thus far cos it really hard to find true frenship in an office i guess! keke..so michybabeee~ i thank everything to be able to meet u and yeps as we always say..we are the buddies for everything! be it shopping/desserts/camwhore/htht! loves u! ♥
a walk to rmb =p 13.o6.1o
it's just another simple day out (: but it's the company n time spent tgt that matters :) got wad we wanted on ou agenda with e trip down to sim lim square which we had wished for more ppl dere to go dwn to the IT fair instead :p lols went over to bugis for yummy snacks (ice-cream!!) which continued with a walk frm tanjong pagar al the way to clark quay in midst of exploring e place & finding good foodie! pity that those shops arent opened on sundays :( boo hoos!
though tiring frm all the walking and feeling sinful frm all the eating :p i did enjoyed the day and yeps u know it: i ♥ u (:
the surprise lunch date 15.o6.1o
wee! apple crumble is lovessss :D shaun had a surprise lunch date for me on tues at vivo after his job interview! (: we had pastamania! he's gotta start wrk soonies in another week or so and i'm glad that he finally found a job :) though this means that we may hv lesser time to meet up esp after i start sch all over again in july :( but anyways, jiayous & all e best for the job dear! at least u wuldnt hav to b bothered abt having to only rot at home :P
i'm feeling oh-so blessed & happy with e mac breakfast from earlier on that was specially brought to me whilst now slacking & rotting on my lappy with 就想赖着你 and chatting with dearie pei on msn! gonna make this weekend a truly lovely one (:
it's been wayyyyy toooo loonnnggg since we all met up! :) all the catching up and camwhoring is one thing that i truly missed (: it was fun having dinner tgt though seated at a long table n culdnt get to really talk to every single person..but the presence of each and everyone that night seriously made all the coordinating and preparation of the gathering worthwhile! we even had nicholas as special guest! who happened to b on holiday back in sg frm studying in US! pity that quite a few peeps whom i do miss but culdnt make it for the dinner :( but there's always another time i guess! just love it that how no matter how long ago we had graduated or how not often we meet up, we all still can maintain this closeness btw us like how it was like back then in JJ and still not hav any awkward silence like how i may experience with ppl whom i dun realli meet as often :D i bet it was the times we spent tgt back then in sch which brought us this far (:
picnic at marina barrage with my dear gfs! 12.o6.1o
♥♥♥♥♥♥
woots! finally got my chance to go dwn to the pretty relaxing marina barrage for a PICNIC! the picnic that mich and i had been anticipating for sooooooo lonnnngggg! hahaha! and we were so glad that pydearie culd join us this time round! rmbed she culdnt join for our previous picnic cos she needs to b babysitter for cute jedi! ;) it was fun! just sitting on the vintagey blue mat surrounded with all the good foodie/drinks and of cos..also having the BESTEST company! :D
didnt get the chance to fly kites though :( which was supposedly everyone's main aim to do upon reachin barrage..hahs..but i still enjoyed with just munchin on those junk food + camwhoring + chatting with my dearies! (:
i always find it how amazing it is for py & i to becum as close :) probably cos it's embedded in our hearts/characters or it was fate that brought both of us tgt..or probably it's cos if the numerous time spent tgt, no matter is play/complain/bitch/cry/shopping/ktv-ing/studying or wadever! it seems like we can do sooooo much things tgt :D and yeps i'm really glad to hav her with me in my life which made the decision to befriend her back then in jj to be the wise one!
yj hearts u totally babe! ♥
as for michy! woo hoo~! i culdnt help to start smiling and realised how blissful i am to b able to get a job in my current company now which started this frenship btw us both! i rmbed michy was also wrking as a temp staff back then when i started not long ago too! probably it was the right time or wad which got us acquainted as colleagues first, then fren, then buddies for now :) it nice to hav maintained this bond thus far cos it really hard to find true frenship in an office i guess! keke..so michybabeee~ i thank everything to be able to meet u and yeps as we always say..we are the buddies for everything! be it shopping/desserts/camwhore/htht! loves u! ♥
a walk to rmb =p 13.o6.1o
it's just another simple day out (: but it's the company n time spent tgt that matters :) got wad we wanted on ou agenda with e trip down to sim lim square which we had wished for more ppl dere to go dwn to the IT fair instead :p lols went over to bugis for yummy snacks (ice-cream!!) which continued with a walk frm tanjong pagar al the way to clark quay in midst of exploring e place & finding good foodie! pity that those shops arent opened on sundays :( boo hoos!
though tiring frm all the walking and feeling sinful frm all the eating :p i did enjoyed the day and yeps u know it: i ♥ u (:
the surprise lunch date 15.o6.1o
wee! apple crumble is lovessss :D shaun had a surprise lunch date for me on tues at vivo after his job interview! (: we had pastamania! he's gotta start wrk soonies in another week or so and i'm glad that he finally found a job :) though this means that we may hv lesser time to meet up esp after i start sch all over again in july :( but anyways, jiayous & all e best for the job dear! at least u wuldnt hav to b bothered abt having to only rot at home :P
i'm feeling oh-so blessed & happy with e mac breakfast from earlier on that was specially brought to me whilst now slacking & rotting on my lappy with 就想赖着你 and chatting with dearie pei on msn! gonna make this weekend a truly lovely one (:
15 June 2010
tmr will be the day where most of the chinese religious ppl will hav some praying sessions with dumplings! my mum does so too and that explains the zomg number of dumplings lying on my dining table at this particular moment! everyone keeps giving! think my mum can rent a part time stall in the market and sell them alr! lols
speaking of authentic dumplings..i personally only eat those hand-made ones from home..i wuld not buy those selling outside de..somehow or rather i tink it's cos i'm blessed with being able to feast on home-made ones since young :)
speaking of which..my late ah ma makes the best dumplings i had ever eaten! though old (but still not frail back then)..i rmb how she will make soooo many, as much as she culd..so that it will b enuff to distribute among her 9 kids and her numerous grandchildren! turns out to b we all are huge fans of her dumplings! i wuld always rmb how ah wei wuld ask for double salted egg yolks in his and mine w/o the yolk! fussy us whenever i come to think back abt it but dearest her will always accommodate to wadever we asked for! how nice!
i once witnessed the entire process of completing the dumplings! from washing & cooking e ingredients, the 'wrapping' of it and the steaming of it! oh hell i rmbed there's heapsss of work for it de! and ah ma wuld do it all herself..usually taking the WHOLE day or even daysss! appreciate her effort back then just to make yummy dumplings for us!
but now! i wuldnt get to eat her dumplings anymore since she passed on sooo abruptly a few yrs back and didnt really passed on the skill to my aunts..no doubt the incident had alr passed by for so long..but i realised every now and then, things around me wuld just reminds me of her love and concern for us all..guess i realli do miss her..and still kind of upset by the fact that i culdnt even hear for myself her last words for us (or probably also cos she wasnt given the chance to say so too) :(
i just rmbed that the whole thing happened so fast & sudden! rawrs! i know i cant go back in time anymore but i cannot control myself from not missing her..and i bet everyone else in the family do too! occasionally we will include her within our conversation like the past things she used to do for us and etc..looks like she still holds this significant special place in all our hearts & minds..hates it when i still get oh-so emotional when i speak of her to ppl outside my family but i cant help it..so just bear with me i guess
went for a jog for 2 consecutive evenings alr! yesterday & today..just felt like going for a run probably cos i was too bored stuck at hm after work or cos i was trying to clear off the blockage in my mind! and i realised running do help in unclogging my blocked mind off those unwanted thoughts somehow or rather! though tiredssss (like how i am now) after the run, i guess it wuld give me a better slp at night and i shld seriously start slping earlier everyday alr! target is 11pm but i knw i wuldnt be able to fulfill it! so i will just work within a buffer time i guess..
reached office totally drenched this morn due to the *damnit* sudden heavy rain when my bus was nearing office alr! jeans was wet up to my knee and e back of my cardigan was like just being washed out frm the washing machine -.- hav umbella like useless la! spoiled my day totally! but luckily things got better when i had a great lunchie at pastamania! :D my favvvvv apple crumble pizza as dessert! *yums!
reached office totally drenched this morn due to the *damnit* sudden heavy rain when my bus was nearing office alr! jeans was wet up to my knee and e back of my cardigan was like just being washed out frm the washing machine -.- hav umbella like useless la! spoiled my day totally! but luckily things got better when i had a great lunchie at pastamania! :D my favvvvv apple crumble pizza as dessert! *yums!
10 June 2010
the pleasant surprise! ♥♥♥
seriously nothing else, other than feeling uber blissful and happy could have described how i felt when i saw the text that i'm gonna have koi bubble tea after attending a whole looonnnggg day of company training workshop! the simple dinner, the random window shoppings and e ride back home tgt (((:
i'm glad that i'm stuck with u (: