Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru toiu yo
Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru to iu yo
Tadori tsuku sono saki ni wa
Nani ga bokura wo matteru?
Nigeru tame ja naku yume ou tame ni
Tabi ni deta hazusa tooi natsu no ano hi
Ashita sae mieta nara tame iki mo nai kedo
Nagare ni sakarau fune no you ni
Ima wa mae he susume
Kurushimi no tsukita basho ni
Shiawase ga matsu toiu yo
Boku wa mada sagashite iru
Kisetsu hazure no himawari
Kobushi nigirishime asahi wo mateba
Akai tsume ato ni namida kirari ochiru
Kodoku ni mo nareta nara
Tsuki akari tayori ni
Hane naki tsubasa de tobi tatou
Motto mae he susume
Amagumo ga kireta nara
Nureta michi kagayaku
Yami dake ga oshiete kureru
Tsuyoi tsuyoi hikari
Tsuyoku mae he susume
15 June 2010
tmr will be the day where most of the chinese religious ppl will hav some praying sessions with dumplings! my mum does so too and that explains the zomg number of dumplings lying on my dining table at this particular moment! everyone keeps giving! think my mum can rent a part time stall in the market and sell them alr! lols
speaking of authentic dumplings..i personally only eat those hand-made ones from home..i wuld not buy those selling outside de..somehow or rather i tink it's cos i'm blessed with being able to feast on home-made ones since young :)
speaking of which..my late ah ma makes the best dumplings i had ever eaten! though old (but still not frail back then)..i rmb how she will make soooo many, as much as she culd..so that it will b enuff to distribute among her 9 kids and her numerous grandchildren! turns out to b we all are huge fans of her dumplings! i wuld always rmb how ah wei wuld ask for double salted egg yolks in his and mine w/o the yolk! fussy us whenever i come to think back abt it but dearest her will always accommodate to wadever we asked for! how nice!
i once witnessed the entire process of completing the dumplings! from washing & cooking e ingredients, the 'wrapping' of it and the steaming of it! oh hell i rmbed there's heapsss of work for it de! and ah ma wuld do it all herself..usually taking the WHOLE day or even daysss! appreciate her effort back then just to make yummy dumplings for us!
but now! i wuldnt get to eat her dumplings anymore since she passed on sooo abruptly a few yrs back and didnt really passed on the skill to my aunts..no doubt the incident had alr passed by for so long..but i realised every now and then, things around me wuld just reminds me of her love and concern for us all..guess i realli do miss her..and still kind of upset by the fact that i culdnt even hear for myself her last words for us (or probably also cos she wasnt given the chance to say so too) :(
i just rmbed that the whole thing happened so fast & sudden! rawrs! i know i cant go back in time anymore but i cannot control myself from not missing her..and i bet everyone else in the family do too! occasionally we will include her within our conversation like the past things she used to do for us and etc..looks like she still holds this significant special place in all our hearts & minds..hates it when i still get oh-so emotional when i speak of her to ppl outside my family but i cant help it..so just bear with me i guess
went for a jog for 2 consecutive evenings alr! yesterday & today..just felt like going for a run probably cos i was too bored stuck at hm after work or cos i was trying to clear off the blockage in my mind! and i realised running do help in unclogging my blocked mind off those unwanted thoughts somehow or rather! though tiredssss (like how i am now) after the run, i guess it wuld give me a better slp at night and i shld seriously start slping earlier everyday alr! target is 11pm but i knw i wuldnt be able to fulfill it! so i will just work within a buffer time i guess..
reached office totally drenched this morn due to the *damnit* sudden heavy rain when my bus was nearing office alr! jeans was wet up to my knee and e back of my cardigan was like just being washed out frm the washing machine -.- hav umbella like useless la! spoiled my day totally! but luckily things got better when i had a great lunchie at pastamania! :D my favvvvv apple crumble pizza as dessert! *yums!
reached office totally drenched this morn due to the *damnit* sudden heavy rain when my bus was nearing office alr! jeans was wet up to my knee and e back of my cardigan was like just being washed out frm the washing machine -.- hav umbella like useless la! spoiled my day totally! but luckily things got better when i had a great lunchie at pastamania! :D my favvvvv apple crumble pizza as dessert! *yums!